do you ever think about the future? i once heard that if you can't spell future you can't be in it, but that's not really true. maybe we will all end up as a lazy bunch of idiots like in idiocracy ( with luke wilson(its a fucking awesome movie so go watch it right away)) or what if we have a futurama year 3000? with aliens, robots, and lobster people (zoidborg haha) I think about how times have changed since i was a kid. I'm only 18 so it wasnt that long ago. I guess im just realizing that when I'm old will have seen a lot of change. technology is developing so quickly i cant even keep up with it. im curios to what else its going to do. I wonder if facebook will just be a phase of this century. what will people be doing in a 100 years? or how long will the world last? will there always be life forever? will there ever be nothing forever? i wonder how people will look and dress because that has also been changing since the first loin to togas to uggs. shit. shit we have a whole fashion industry that is constantly creating new fashions and trends and shit. I read a book about this society that take "longevity" which makes you live forever so the government has to ban children so there is no overpopulation. there is more but honestly i really dont feel like typing right now. w33d

Jane's House

I've met Jane very seldom, so seldom that to this day a lot seems like a mystery to me. I must have been about 7 or 8 years old when I would go over and say hi to Jane when summer started. My parents never came with me because they tried to avoid her. I don't really know why i went over there each year to say hi.

Jane lives alone. I don't know what happened to her husband or if she even had one. But i do know she has a daughter. Anyways when i went to say hi, i remember she would always ask me about my life like a good neighbor. And then she would tell stories that were extremely long and pointless that i would just sit there and nod and add in the occasional smile when it seemed right.

I always got a strange vibe from Jane's house. One of the first things i noticed was that she did not have a TV in her living room. As a kid who was absorbed in TV I didn't understand what use the room was. Just for sitting? After the living room was her kitchen which had a highchair that was occupied by a glass doll. For the first couple of years this was all that I saw of Jane's house.

One year Jane gave me a tour of her house. her guest room and her attic are the two rooms that remain in my memory. Do you ever wonder what lies inside the house of your neighbor? I never really had but after seeing these two rooms it sort of did make me think how people have their quirks, extreme or not. Jane had an extreme quirk. Fist was her guest room. This would be the last place i would ever want to stay. There were about 5 times as many dolls on the bed than pillows. each and every one of them staring at you. I don't even know where you would put them because they were glass ones so its not like you can throw them on the ground. The bed seemed more like the dolls bed than a guest bed.

Jane's 3rd floor was an Attic sort of loft. I remember walking up the dim lit stairs with anticipation. shocked. it was like a mini town of dolls. everywhere. You could only walk on a small path in a circle because the whole entire fucking room was full of dolls, houses, and accessories for the dolls. The dolls were set up as if on display. It wasn't like Jane just had a bunch of junk stored in her attic, it was like a museum set up with displayed. but for who? for Jane.

as much as i loved barbies at the time, Jane's collection freaked me out. Glass dolls are different than plastic.

Jane's yard has always creeped me out too. She has so many trees that when i look over from my backyard its pitch dark. At night its even scarier because the wind blows through the trees leaves and branches giving off a sorta of eerie breeze. Sometimes i hear footsteps or my mind is playing tricks on me, who knows maybe its just a cat. My dad used to tell us there was a tombstone in her year and for the longest time my brother and i believed him. Whenever we played wiffle ball and hit it over the fence that separated Jane and us we would dread having to sneak over and find our ball to the point where we would buy multiple balls just so we wouldn't have to go over.

I havnt seen Jane for about 4 years now. I don't know what she is doing but some nights i still hear footsteps.

summer tetris lovin'

I'm all the way in kalispell montana. Here on 2nd ave E. Thats right I live on the east side. Is it lame that I am laying on my parents bed listening to freebird and playing tetris? I would normally say yes it sort of is but thats the thing about summer. I can absolutely waste my time, be unproductive, and not give a fuck. I watch a lot of tv during the day if i'm not working. I know, I know I should be outside swimming and soaking up the sun but you know what, I like to be lazy in the summer ( i guess the title of this could really be summer lazy'n). This summer is different though. well the end of my summer will be different. I wont be going back to the country i call home. and deep down i know it wont be my home in the next 10 years. I will think of montana or where ever i end up as home. This summer I'm going to college all the way in fucking montana. I still wonder how I ended up here, even though it seems obvious because we own a house here and I've come to this town every summer since I can remember. But still, what am I doing here? I think about how far away I am from what I'm most familiar with and honestly it kind of freaks me out. I kind of freak myself out because I've lived in this bubble with such a strange lifestyle. When i come back to small town montana I am always a bit in a culture shock. And living in poland made i guess somewhat strange. The other day i spent about 15 minutes looking for a candy bar. There was so many choices and decisions to be made. I ended up buying a sugar daddy, good old sugar daddies. My friend looked surprised and told me she hadn't had one of those in years. I told her they were awesome except they get stuck in your teeth. Its true if you ever eat one just suck! or get a toothpick. when we brought our candy to the cash register (after spending another 10minutes picking out a drink (again the choices!)) the young man gave a look to the sugar daddy before he scanned it and remarked"wow we have these here?". There seems to be trends for candy as there are for cloths, hairstyles, and lingo. and sugar daddy's are defiantly not a trend here.

alright well im just going to come here during my special time, you might think i sound crazy right now but thats not the case. so bear with me if anyone every reads this.

i've been using stumble upon and i've stumbled upon many lists about lessons in life and i thought that i should have my own so maybe someone will stumble across mine.

1. matches can come in very handy. think about buying some..

2. tetris taught me that even when things seem unlikely, to never give up and keep playing the game.

3. if you ever crack an egg with two yolks dont eat it

4. if its hard to be honest then be more confident

5. when you drink be happy

6. read more

7. wear sweatpants once in a while

8. if you feel bad, drink spite

9. celebrate small things if you feel like celebrating

10. take long showers, its nice to take you time